David Evans (1937–2010)
David’s interest, care and enthusiasm for other people is quite amazing. His unexpected illness and death are all the more shocking and painful, because when a great tree of a person, like David—not a weed—but a great tree falls, the reverberation is large too. Because it’s like David had fitted a thousand lives into one lifetime he could give off the scent of eternity.
There’s a poem by Maya Angelou that explains this kind of falling of a tree better than I can:
Ailey, Baldwin, Floyd, Killens and Mayfield
When great trees fall,
rocks on distant hills shudder,
lions hunker down
in tall grasses,
and even elephants
Lumber after safety.
When great trees fall
in forests,
small things recoil into silence,
their senses
eroded beyond fear.
When great souls die,
the air around us becomes
light, rare, sterile.
We breathe, briefly.
Our eyes, briefly,
see with
a hurtful clarity.
Our memory, suddenly sharpened,
examines,
gnaws on kind words
unsaid,
promised walks
never taken.
Great souls die and
our reality, bound to
them, takes leave of us.
Our souls,
dependent upon their
nurture,
now shrink, wizened.
Our minds, formed
and informed by their
radiance
fall away.
We are not much maddened
As reduced to the unutterable ignorance
of dark, cold
caves.
And when great souls die,
after a period peace blooms,
slowly and always
irregularly. Spaces fill
with a kind of
soothing electric vibration.
Our senses, restored, never
to be the same, whisper to us.
They existed. They existed.
We can be. Be and be
better. For they existed.
[Maya Angelou, The Complete Collected Poems, Virago Press, London (1995: 266-67).]
We have heard in the reading from John’s gospel [19.38-42] about the shocking and untimely death of Jesus of Nazareth, and the beginnings of the funeral arrangements. At a time of death there’s much to organize but after today the agony and pain can find us, to quote the poem in ‘dark cold caves’.
Some of us will be angry: angry with God; with the cancer; with human frailty. For some of us: numbness; or action and reaction; for some silent emptiness; for some tears and pining.
With a great tree, such as David, who we have been privileged to know there’s a comfort that ‘they existed. We can be. Be and be better. For they existed.’
David’s care, interest and enthusiasm has touched thousands upon thousands of people. For each of us, our relationship with David doesn’t cease with his death, rather he will continue to shape and fashion the course of our lives for having known him. There is comfort in this.
As a Christian I find comfort in the fact that God grieves with us too, and that God—in Jesus—has experienced, intimately, the agony of death. We are not alone. I believe too there is comfort in the way a person’s life can become magnified after their their death; that their being can come alive so powerfully for us, as will be the case with David for many of us.
I find comfort too, at the end of David’s life—a working life given to the care, enthusiasm and interest of house and home, and the people and animals that lived in them—I find comfort in the Christian hope of a perfect heavenly home, a dwelling where:
there shall be no darkness or dazzling
but one equal light;
no noise or silence
but one equal music;
no fears or hopes
but one equal possession;
no ends or beginnings
but one equal eternity.
[John Donne 1573–1631]
Amen.
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